As I am physically feeling better, I'm able to focus on processing all of this. One thing that I keep coming back to, is my Stella B! Because she has been such a joy in our lives, I wanted Cora, with all my heart.
I would be feeling so much more guilt, if it weren't for Stella B. When I was in the hospital, I just kept thinking that this whole process was much easier for me after having gone through the experience of having Stella B. I would be feeling so much more guilt about my water breaking early, if I didn't already have a Full-Term baby. I would be feeling so much more guilt about coming home from the hospital. I would be feeling so much more guilt about spending time away from the NICU and having fun without Cora Leigh there with us.
While I wish my water didn't break so early, once it did, and now that Cora was born, I'm grateful for my time at home with my family, especially over the holidays and to celebrate Stella B's birthday! Thanks be to God!
Stella B at 1 week old (same as Cora, now)
I love you!
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